By Charles
Recknagel
Prague, 12 October 2004 (RFE/RL) -- Anyone meeting
Betool Khedairi can be forgiven for not knowing at first
whether he is talking to an Iraqi, or a British, author.
That is because Khedairi, who turns 39 next month and
lives in Amman, speaks native-born English with a slight
Scottish lilt. Yet she writes in Arabic.
As she admits herself, she belongs fully to both the
East and the West.
"I write in Arabic," Khedairi said. "I feel in Arabic. I
even dream in Arabic. But if I have problems I want to
face, or need to face, normally I switch to my European
side."
Khedairi is an engaging, pleasant woman who realizes she
has an extraordinary life. Much of that life is retold
in her first novel, which loosely chronicles her
childhood and was published in Arabic in 1999.
Titled "A Sky So Close," the book has since been
published in five other languages, including English and
Italian. It tells the story of a young girl growing up
in Baghdad in the 1960s, '70s, and '80s.
"It was really very much about a little Iraqi girl
growing up in Baghdad with a very English mom, as
opposed to her very Iraqi dad, with all their conflicts
of cultures, religion, habits -- even eating habits,"
Khedairi said. "Everything they did caused a problem in
the house. And there is this little girl who has to deal
with all this conflict. Half of the book takes place in
Baghdad and the other half takes place in England. So,
in Baghdad, she is the daughter of the foreign woman,
and in England, she is the Arab."
"A Sky So Close" won Khedairi a loyal following in the
Mideast and in Europe and the United States. A literary
critic for "The New York Times" called the book "a lush
first novel...both impressionistic and accomplished."
But Khedairi -- who spent 10 years writing her first
book -- is modest about her success. She said she wrote
it to cope with the death of her father in a car
accident at a time when her mother was also dying from
an extended illness. The story was highly personal, with
characters changed only slightly for dramatic effect.
She considers the
greatest success of her book to be the fact that it is
about everyday Iraqis, yet still manages to interest
readers who may know little about the country:
"I was pleasantly surprised that I managed to connect to
the West," Khedairi said. "I managed to show them what
the Iraqi human being is about, rather than what they
know through their media."
After "A Sky So Close" was published, Khedairi said she
faced the problem that bedevils so many writers
describing their childhood for their first book -- that
is, how to follow up with an equally strong second book
that does not draw on the same source.
She knew she wanted to write again about Iraq and set it
in the present. But at that time -- in early 2000 --
Iraq was suffering under UN sanctions tied to Baghdad's
purported efforts to acquire weapons of mass
destruction. She worried that the lives of everyday
Iraqis might make for rather bleak reading.
"I wanted to write about Iraq, but [the situation there]
was so depressing that I felt no one would read it,"
Khedairi said. "So I tried to write it in a comic way,
and I came up with a black comedy. I chose one building
where everything happens. And every floor of the
building represents an Iraqi layer of society -- and how
the sanctions and the wars and the dictatorship and all
that led to the collapse of the moral structure based on
the collapse of the infrastructure of Iraq during all
this period."
Her book, called "The Absent One," was published in
Arabic six months ago. But this time, her story is not
just of a young girl caught between East and West, but
of a whole society.
She said that the book "talks about an Iraq, an old
Iraq, known to Iraqis but unknown to the West, and it
ends with a new Iraq being known to the West but unknown
to Iraqis."
As in her first book, Khedairi has tried not to
prescribe how her subjects -- or her country -- should
cope with the competing pulls of Eastern and Western
values. Instead, she focuses on how ordinary people make
their own choices and often suffer the consequences of
political decisions made far beyond their own homes.
"I focus on writing about the regular, normal human
being in the back lines, because when the politicians do
take decisions, they do not take the opinion of the
normal person, and that is the guy or the woman who
suffers. And this is worth writing about," Khedairi
said. "When I do write, I don't like to go into
politics. And I do not tend to judge because it is so
complex that only after years and years of secrets
coming out, then we will know the 'truth,' between
brackets. So until then, I will keep on writing about
the normal human being."
For now, Khedairi is busy trying to interest filmmakers
in turning her second book into a movie. But sooner or
later, she knows, she will again have to face the
question of what to write next.
What keeps Khedairi going -- even during those dark
times when an author wonders if she has anything more to
say?
Khedairi says her greatest encouragement comes in the
form of notes she receives from readers:
"It makes me very happy when I receive an e-mail from
Thailand, say, from a student saying, 'I related to your
book,' and I wrote a book about Iraq," Khedairi said.
"So every time I get depressed that writing doesn't
change anything, that I am not going to add anything --
you know, you have your withdrawals -- and then I just
receive a sweet e-mail like that, or a letter or a phone
call, and I realize that maybe I am offering something
to the world in the end."